The day after the injection

Weekly I go through the same thing, the side effects of the injection that’s supposed to keep me well.

The day after the injection is always almost more difficult than the injection itself. The injection just reminds me of MS, like I could forget anyway.  The side effects range from anything to feeling like my body just doesn’t belong to me anymore. I plan things, I end up having to cancel at the last minute because I didn’t expect to feel so bad this time. They told me I would get used to the side effects….Not so much.

So I ask myself, is it really helping me to stay as well as can be or is it simply giving me something else to focus on once a week.

But after nearly a year of injecting and still worsening a little but not extremely, do I keep the injections and the overbearing routine that it brings or do I take the risk of going without…

Though choice that I wish I didn’t have to think about, I wish MS wasn’t a part of my life, still…

Feeling sorry for myself is not going to help, it’s probably the rain, so let’s imagine the sunshine, think of my wonderful family and all the things that make me happy because there are loads and listen to happy songs. When the day is not so good, the action of smiling even if not wanted will make us feel happy :-)

Geraldine @ Papillon111


I was in McDonald, Nottingham.

I had what I really shouldn’t eat but that Big Mac tastes so beautiful, it was just cooked so none of that meat, if you can call it that, that feels like you’re eating the insole of your shoe…Anyway…

There was a group of young girls and they’re doing selfies. I never quite realised it was so popular until I’ve seen them do it.

They were really happy, they kept taking pictures posing and pulling faces at their camera phone.

They didn’t seem to want anyone to take a picture of them as a group. I thought, wow, haven’t things changed, I used to always want someone to take a picture of my group of friends.

Anyhow I did feel I’m getting older….:-/ I know I’m, according to some, still young but still I’m not from the Digital Age where selfies are part of my normal world or I got a phone when I was 10.

I still enjoy letters, old songs, I don’t do shorthand texting and I don’t really understand snapchat.

But I am trying to understand Twitter definitely :-) Soon I’ll do a selfie.

Geraldine @ Papillon


My wonderful discovery of the Thermals

I’m cold, very cold. I remember when I first came to England, to make my way to Nottingham, I think it was Air France who brought me over in Heathrow and that’s probably the only time I went to Heathrow.

It was in September 1999, I came out of the plane, I felt the cold, it was like knifes going through me but nothing had prepared me for November.

I thought i knew the cold being from the French Alps and the snow but no! I didn’t. It didn’t matter how big my coat was, I still felt damp (no pun intended) and cold.

So I discovered thermals, what a wonderful attire! And after year 9, i didn’t feel September was so cold so now sometimes around Halloween I start wearing the top thermal and round about 2 weeks later, I start using the bottom thermal or what some people have told me is called Long John… Anyway whatever it is, it keeps me warm and it makes me feel safe somehow, soon I’ll get the thermal socks out….Keep yourself warm and safe :-)



MS – What do i know anyway

MS or Multiple Sclerosis or A very annoying thing to live with!

It started some time ago, about 5/6 years to be exact. Ever since it’s been one thing after another.

Everyday and it doesn’t miss it, there is something new or something not quite the same as it was. I don’t understand it fully yet, will I ever? I’ve tried to tame it, I’m not all that successful.

Accepting it seems by far the hardest but yet the best thing to do at the moment….


How did I get here?

Why is Geraldine in Nottingham? It’ll come clear but let’s start with that: I woke up one morning with this wonderful idea that the world would be a better place if people felt good. I remember the song in my head was ‘Heal the world’ a song that today I still hear and smile.

There are lots of reasons why I woke up thinking that I’m sure and the beginning is somewhere in between all the stories I’ve got going on in my head but one thing for sure, it’s a journey I’m on that never ends and what’s better is everyday brings something or someone else!

A good story I’ve heard lately, I’m not sure who it’s from but it’s the end of the story that matters. It’s the frog one and it goes something like this:

There once was a bunch of tiny frogs who arranged a climbing competition. Their goal was to reach the top of a very high tower. A crowd had gathered around the tower to see the race and cheer them on. The race began…..

Honestly, no one in the crowd really believed the tiny frogs would be able to make it to the top. Comments heard throughout the race were such as,

“too difficult”
“They won’t get to the top”
“Not a chance they will succeed,”
“The tower is way too high.”
“At some point, they will all fall”
“It’s not possible!”
“Who do they think they are? Spiderman?”

Sure enough, the tiny frogs began falling, one by one—except for those who, in a fresh tempo, were climbing higher and higher. People continued to yell, “It is too difficult! You won’t make it!”

More tiny frogs got tired and gave up.

Most started to really believe what the crowd were saying…
”It’s impossible!”

There was ONE though who continued to climb higher and higher.

This one just refused to give up!

The crowd continued with their comments on and on….

BUT after all had given up climbing the tower there was that only one tiny frog who, after a big effort, reached the top! Thrilled, all of the other tiny frogs wanted to know how this one frog managed to do it. They asked how did you do it? How did you find the strength to carry on and reach the top?

It turned out…the one who made it to the top was DEAF!

Believe in yourself, go after your dreams, don’t listen to the ones who tell you that you can’t, in the end go for it with all the passion that you have and you will succeed!